Next week marks a grim anniversary for Las Vegas. The single deadliest mass shooting in modern American history. A man opened fire from the Mandalay Bay Resort and Casino into crowds at a country music festival on Oct. 1, 2017. He killed 58 people, injured hundreds more and left this city reeling.
A year on the city is still healing. We spoke to two survivors.
'I hid under someone who was dead'
NPR first spoke to Nick Campbell when he was 16, a high school student from a suburb of Las Vegas, just after the shooting. He was in a hospital bed, his right lung pierced by a bullet, his ribs broken.
He'd been at the festival with his girlfriend. When the shots began he dove on top of her to protect her. He helped her climb over a fence, but he couldn't make that climb himself because of his wounds. He searched for a way to protect himself.
"I hid under someone who was dead," he said at the time. "The shooter is not going to shoot where there's already someone dead."
Almost a year later, Campbell is now 17. He played basketball at school last year, ran track and was a lifeguard over the summer. On a recent afternoon, he and his friends were hanging in a park near his home in Henderson, Nev.
Watching him now you wouldn't know what he's been through.
"It's been a long, long road, mentally and physically," he says. "Physically, I'm back. I mean not back to normal, there are still hindrances here and there with my lungs and my ribs."
But Campbell says the physical recovery was easier than the mental.
"I mean because we live here it's everywhere. So you can't really run from it, you kind of have to get through it. So that was the hard part too."
There are reminders everywhere, the #VegasStrong T-shirts, the rallies, the tributes and the remembrances. So, over the past year, he slowly confronted every reminder of that night and spent months in therapy.
He returned to the open-air venue of the festival a week after the shooting.
"I just sat there for a little bit and I just cried and that helped a lot," he says.
Another time he went back with his girlfriend. They cut off the admissions bracelet for the festival and threw them over the fence.
There are triggers: war movies, loud noises and the most difficult trigger...his girlfriend. She was with him that night and, when together, they sparked tough memories of what happened that day.
"We just kind of decided let's just take a break," he said. "And we didn't speak for six months straight."
They didn't want to bring each other down, he said.
Recently he and his girlfriend got back together and jumped the biggest hurdle so far. They went to a concert a lot like the one where Campbell was shot. It was country music, and it was outside.
"At first I was really anxious because the hotel was right there and it was the same setting, same feeling, she was right next to me. But then once I got into it and I didn't think about it anymore."
There have been mass shootings since. After the February shooting at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School in Parkland, Fla., teens reached out to him to ask how he got through it. He didn't join the rallies, he's not political, but he shared his experience with those who asked.
"I just told them don't give up or don't let it affect your day to day life," he said. "It's not your whole life. You can get through it and it gets better...it actually gets better."
What's changed most in the last year is Nick Campbell.
"I don't sweat the small stuff anymore," he said.
In interviews with survivors there's a common theme, a renewed sense of purpose. For Campbell, its a better appreciation of life. For Las Vegas Police Officer Justin Van Nest, it is using his experience from that night of shooting to train others.
Slaying the dragon
After the shooting, many survivors wanted to know why it happened. But there were few answers.
"The goal of our investigation all along was to provide the public with the clearest picture possible of the events leading up to Oct. 1, as well as motive," Clark County Sheriff Joe Lombardo told reporters at the time. "What we have not been able to definitively answer is the 'Why Stephen Paddock committed this act?'"
There are hints in the report. One brother said he might have been bored and looking for a way to be remembered. The other said he was "paranoid and delusional;" a Las Vegas doctor said he might have had bipolar disorder. But it is all guesses.
Sgt. Justin Van Nest says a why wouldn't change much.
"People in order to heal and to cope and to rationalize it in their minds they want some kind of reason that they could say ok that makes sense, but what he did will never make sense to anybody," Van Nest said.
Van Nest was assigned to work overtime that day, securing the festival. He was wrapping up around 10 p.m. and the shooting began.
"We were taking gunfire," he said. "Later we learned that gunfire was directed at us not at the crowd at the time."
Police believed the shooter was firing directly at police vehicles at times during the 10 minutes of gunfire. Van Nest and the other officers were pinned down helping civilians find cover. It was chaos. By the time the shooting stopped, one off duty policeman was dead, several others injured and scores of civilians were killed and wounded.
Before that day, Van Nest had never fired his weapon in the line of duty in the nine years he'd been on the force.
Today, Van Nest works to make sure his department is ready to respond to any mass casualty event. He oversees training for things like active shooters. Van Nest tries to use his experience at the shooting last year to teach others.
"I have my own body cam footage and I use it as an example," he said. "You know maybe this was alright, what I did here or there. But look 'why did I do this or why did I do that?' Here's what I could've done that might have been better."
The office where we meet is filled with binders full of police reports of every mass casualty event that occurs.
Van Nest knows now that responding in the chaos of gunfire and crowds is not the same as in a training room. And he hopes he'll never have to respond to an event like the one on Oct. 1, 2017 again.
"You have this vision I think as a cop that you're going to show up on some scene and you're going to go in there and slay the dragon," he said. "I can say that this absolutely wasn't what I had ever envisioned that I would encounter. That I wouldn't know where bullets were coming from. I didn't have my rifle in my hands."
He says he thinks about it every day.
"This is something we can debrief for the rest of our careers and hopefully it's the last one we have to debrief," he said.
LULU GARCIA-NAVARRO, HOST:
In rural southern Nevada, there's a state assembly race that everyone is watching. Why? Well, it's between a famous brothel owner who compares himself to President Trump and a woman who says she's straight-laced and middle-of-the-road. Sound familiar? NPR's Leila Fadel has the story.
LEILA FADEL, BYLINE: Dennis Hof sits on a red and black velvet couch under TV screens that flash pictures of scantily clad women. Behind him, the doorbell is ringing, and women in lingerie line up. Men walk in, select one of the women, sit with them at the bar and eventually head down a long hallway into bedrooms.
Can you tell me what's happening behind us?
DENNIS HOF: Well, there's a line up going up. What happens is - we call it meet and greet.
(SOUNDBITE OF DOORBELL)
HOF: A customer comes up, and the bell goes off, and we let the girls know there's a new client in the house. Come out and meet him.
FADEL: This is the Republican nominee for Nevada's state assembly from Pahrump, the most populous town in this conservative, rural district. In addition to owning brothels, Hof is a former reality TV star on late night HBO.
HOF: You're in the world-famous BunnyRanch, been here since 1955. We're going to put a sign up that says, over three million serviced or a billion serviced like McDonald's - over a billion serviced (laughter).
FADEL: Now the self-described pimp is turning to politics. Hof credits Trump for his victory in the primary, where he unseated a three-term Republican.
HOF: Donald Trump - he's the pioneer. He led the way. I call him the Christopher Columbus.
FADEL: Hof says it's because Trump broke the mold and made someone like him, a, quote, "anti-establishment candidate," palatable for office. Hof loves the way others talk about him.
HOF: Dennis Hof is the Trump of Pahrump. He's rich. He's famous. He's got nerves of steel. He likes hot girls. He did a best-selling book. He's got a reality TV show. It's on 14 years.
FADEL: Hof is a showman. He gives derisive nicknames to his opponents. He's known to be litigious. But he also has a platform that appeals to his district.
HOF: Small government, low taxes. I hate this commerce tax. I'm infuriated. Where are you on social issues? Well, you don't want to bother me too much on that because I don't care who has sex with who.
FADEL: He is definitely controversial. And his campaign has been plagued with allegations of sexual assault, including rape. He dismisses the accusations as absurd.
HOF: I'm rich. I'm famous. That attracts girls. I work with 500 sexually charged women that love sex. The last thing I would ever do is have to force anybody or coerce anybody to mess around with me.
FADEL: And since speaking to Hof, a new accusation has come to light. A woman in Carson City told the sheriff's office there that Hof raped her. He's now under investigation by the Nevada Department of Public Safety. In a statement, Hof's campaign called the allegation politically motivated but said he is cooperating with investigators. Many establishment Republicans have not endorsed Hof. But because he won the primary, he's likely to win the district in the state assembly since this is a Republican area. Eventually, he has his sights set on the governor's mansion.
HOF: The people that don't like the brothels dislike higher taxes, liars and pay-for-play politicians more than they dislike the brothels. That's - hey, honey. How are you?
VICTOR FUENTES: You know, out here in Pahrump, we call this the last bastion of freedom.
FADEL: That's Victor Fuentes, an evangelical pastor in the district.
FUENTES: And yeah, up here, we want the right to the land. We want - we like our guns, you know? We like to read the Bible. We respect the Constitution.
FADEL: Fuentes is angry at what he calls typical politicians.
FUENTES: Which one is different between one brothel owner and a liar before God?
FADEL: Fuentes has an axe to grind over water rights on his property. He also wants Nevada's commerce tax repealed - all things, he says, Dennis Hof will do. Hof's opponent couldn't be more different. Lesia Romanov is the first Democrat to run in this district since 2012. She's an assistant principal from Las Vegas, and it's her first time running for office.
UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #1: Don't you and your staff...
FADEL: She's addressing a meeting of Democrats in Pahrump. They ask her what she's going to do about a full-page ad Hof took out in the local paper against her.
LESIA ROMANOV: We will get our information out to you. We're not going to respond to a lot of the information he puts out there.
FADEL: Trudy Rupp and Diane Marie Holguin-Brooks look flustered.
UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #1: Well, I don't say you have to respond to him, but you have to acknowledge this. That's the way I feel anyway.
UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #2: Because that's basically how Trump got in.
UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #1: Yeah.
UNIDENTIFIED PERSON #2: He got in by all the false advertising and all the lies.
FADEL: Romanov tells them she can't compete with Hof's money.
ROMANOV: But we can compete with them on being here, talking to the people, letting them get to know me and know that what I stand for and what I believe in is going to be a better reflection of them than he is.
FADEL: Cheryl Tocco is worried.
CHERYL TOCCO: But we don't know you. That's the thing.
FADEL: Romanov tells her she will. They're ramping up the campaign now, endorsed by national women's groups and armed with volunteers ready to canvass neighborhoods. Later, Romanov tells me that she's getting checks from as far as New York not because of her campaign, but because people don't want Hof and people like him in politics.
ROMANOV: Since the primary, people are putting so much faith in me and so much expectation that I feel obligated now.
FADEL: Obligated because of what this race represents not just to Nevada but to the whole country. Leila Fadel, NPR News Transcript provided by NPR, Copyright NPR.